The fact that you have kept trying to work at your aims ("I tried/listened/changed") tells me that you haven't stopped. That you are still trying. I'm more worried by people who don't try and then complain.
You're not depressed, you just aren't getting what you want.
Sometimes I think there's an over-reliance on mission because people with mission have worked out their "meaning for life". Its not that easy.
Fuck man you'll find that not every pussy looks the same, they also don't taste or smell the same. Some taste and smell great and others not so much.
Mission. You've really nailed it with that analogy of the cave. My experience is 100% in line with this.
You've been posting on the RP thread for 2 years dude.
So is this a "I know what I have to do but need others to tell me?"
or do you really not understand that plates/girls/wives/etc come and go...?