Women were my addiction and the pain I carry from the experiences made me drink to self medicate. I just feel that I have lost interest for anything really. Whatever new I start I quickly abandon it expect sports. Sports has been a life saver so far. At least I know what to do and conquer that beast. How do you manage?

You have painted a great picture to describe how you live! When you mean focus on the new, you mean just try out new things in general ?

Thanks man! Unfortunately these 2 are illegal where i live but i will keep it in mind. What do you mean by “MF”? Any other legal substances or supplements you suggest ?

I’m grateful for you guys to leave all the comments and I will take your advice on board. My first thoughts here are that I’m in a middle of an escapism path with alc and weed which keeps me in a bubble. I do lots of sports too but I do feel it’s setting me back much more then in the past. I have had this pattern for as long as i can remember to deal with pain. I’m in pain and...[More]

I’m in the same boat. I have my ups and downs and and facing some difficult things from the past, I’m 40. I guess for your mind and body to accept trp takes as long as it needs so the best I can do is to improve what I can in all areas of my life. I’m struggling big time actually. After such a long existence in blue pill disneyland I can really sense a void in me which makes me feel lost...[More]