Time is an abstract concept created by men. If you could not bring yourself up into action in 2018, you will also fail in 2019.
Include the location in the original post. Many of the points are very culture-specific.
Back to basics, OP.
Why do you comment on there though, OP.
No. You're not a special snowflake, not a special type. And also, no one owes you anything, not even your father.
How do you deal with the lack of energy though?
(seriois, not a defeatist attitude)