Attempting any new skill is hard. The difference between successful people and unsuccessful people is being able to keep working at something to push through the hard parts.
In all seriousness I do hope this becomes more mainstream, following the whole irs thot thing on Twitter is reminding me how unbalanced it is these days
I hope it doesn't, makes it more fun for us
Impressed with your mature acceptance of the past and ownership of your own failures.
The gym is the best thing for you now, build yourself into a new man.