Wonderful post, I fucked up a lay two days ago because I was trying to play it safe and waited for IOIs that never came, yet she was all for it and I chickened out. Don’t be like that, go until the end.
Also, OP is thinking too much looking for a reason, but the real one is "she just felt like it", AWALT and all the stuff we preach everyday around here.
I've been helping a girl shed a few pounds and even though I know what will happen when she does, I insist on it. I've been admitting to myself that I like to do it for myself, rather than for her.
It's really fucking good, I had some doubts because it's been written and published during the current political climate, but Greene is still the same.
Mindset my friend! Work hard and the right frame of mind will become your standard one.