@nr368 More a rhetorical question than anything, although you're completely right
Some time since last update. Called it when she broke up: After less than a month, I heard from a friend she'd been fucking around, despite speeches about the break not being about that. Likely catalyzed by dumb shit I said and did as bluepill-despair got the better of me. Starting to socialize again. Why do I still love her so much?
Can't get her out of my head, memories every-fuckin-where I go. NC is hard to do when your mind constantly betrays you... Going drinking with an old friend tonight, saying he'll bring some girls to cheer me up.
@destraht Would like to, but no way I have the time nor the money. Studying for a new degree now, as the market for my first degree tanked along with the oil-"depression" a few years back...
Back "home" now, got my crap packed up. She weren't home. Tried to get her back so we could talk it out like adults before I move tomorrow, but she weren't "ready to talk". If she's not ready to talk about this shit-show she's created, maybe she shouldn't have created it in the first place? I'm angry. Oh, and I'm taking the dog.
4 days into the breakup, and I feel like I'm over the worst now. I can laugh at stuff again, but it still feels like there's a hole in my heart. It'll be hell all over again when I get back to sort out the logistics (Been living together the last 6 years). Currently visiting my brothers during easter. They've helped.
4y ago The Hub
@Pentalobe Sometimes you have to release some excess emotion, but men cannot wallow in this state. Afterward go out and take positive action in the world and build some successes. Any action and any success will do at first, you build on these to become efficient at getting more of what you want for less effort in all your endeavors.
@TheStoicCrane Been reading a bit from the sidebar and n00b-guide over at reddit(That's partly how I understood they were all shit-tests). It's slow going now, but somehow it helps me understand somewhat.