Follow your gut instinct. Bang other bitches.

Bro, what do you actually want? You are torn inside, but what do you actually want?

It is perfectly normal to be attracted to other women while you are in a relationship. There will never be a day where you are not attracted to attractive women. Furthermore, it is completely normal behaviour for a woman to want children.

So what do you want? What is more important to you? The happiness of your girlfriend? Stability? Support? Lone wolf horny dog mode?

Sure you should talk to your girlfriend, but first you need to actually know what you want and get your head straight. Go for a long ((5 hour +) hike, hit the gym, don't rot on social media for a few days and come back and tell me what you actually desire deep down.

Hey, so I am a 30 year old male, with my own house a good job etc. would say lookwise 7/10 but got some game. I have been with my GF for nearly 3 years (she was 25 at time, now is 28 years old). Anyway met her when i was buying food, got number, date and etc, At that time I was packing and starting to move to a new city, on our second date we had sex. And after that i told her something like: "I am not looking for anything serious, since I am moving and wont know what will be in future". She started crying and told me she loved me and so on so I got weak and went into an LTR (also was curious about LTRs,

If I started crying would you write me a check for $1000 ???

What the fuck is this..... she's not a puppy for god's sakes. She is an ADULT. Crying seems so manipulative, and even if genuine, it's not the basis of a relationship, it's the basis of "shut the fuck up and welcome to the real world".

to know if its even worht it - wasnt in an LTR with burning desire, so I wanted to find out). Anyway she helps me move and so on, we fuck , does anal, rimming, watches lesbian porn with me. Has the burning desire still, does nearly 99% things, but no threesomes (which I want).

Sometimes she mentioned she wants kids, I didnt took it seriously. I wasnt sure if I wanted so i say I didnt know yet if I want to. By the way I had vasectomy (because of crazy ex-gf, have sperm in sperm bank If iwant kids in future. Vasectomy was best decision i made, saves money, can sleep that i am 100% protected, no late menstruation bullshit from her). Fast forward to now, she mentions kids every week

At this point you want different things

(has probably the baby fever, baby rabbies or how you call it) it pisses me off since i am finding out i cant stand kids right now. Also her biological clock is ticking 28 year now ( i had some feeling that age would be problem and she would pressure me or her sister, family ). I am 30 and not ready mentally for it, maybe when I am 40 years old. Also even if i had kids there is a high chance they would be crippled (deaf - since both my parens are born deaf, I am heatlhy and normal).

I am finding out now, I also desire other women... noticing their smiles and eyes on me, dont know how long can I keep myself in control without going in and trying to fuck them. Wanna try asian, black... and 18 year old women... Also i want to become enterprenuer and in 10 years to be a milionare, so dont have to work. My priority is money than her and some future kid.

Right. Money and other women, makes sense for a young man.

My GF loves me,

I find with "love" it is better to redefine it in other terms like attraction, need, care, desire, affection, support, etc.

99% of female love is need. She is offering very little beyond sex, and that will stop too in the future.

wants more sex than I want lol, always initiates first. She calls me her master sometimes, and her best choice. She says that she doesnt deserve me, and that i can do better than her.

I know when in pair , one want children and the other doest want - that one of them will become resentfull to the other: "bla bla you didnt want children thats why i am unhappy", "

Yes.

For 26 years of my live I was just surviving... (getting my house, problems, mental health, fitness heatlh, ED, sometime suicide thoughts) Now i want to just chill and fuck. A month ago, i just suddenly woke up in the morning and was happy that i dont have children and i am not married.

Right

I am torn inside It just pains me to thinking about leaving her, the pain it would cause her. , I dont know the solution and what should i do.

Dude, she will be FINE.

Most of this is a dependent front to get what she wants - and even if it isn't, she still isn't entitled to your commitment.

I am concerned that you feel like you've adopted a puppy or something else legally and morally binding.

You cannot be bound be her temporary feelings.

She will be 100% fine without you...... she'll go on Tinder and get laid within a week. In a month's time she won't remember who you are. Seriously, she will be FINE.

I had some ideas that might solve it... 1) make her a cuckquean - which would probably solve my problem me wanting to fuck other women, (would take time and patience (have some guidebook), dont know if i have it though). Also still no kids. 2) force her into threesome and cuckqueaning - she told me that she doesnt want to do a threesome, but if it meant she would lose me if she didnt do it then she would do it, to not lose me. Dont know if this would work and she would become hatefull. 3) cheat on her, later she would find out and leave. Or stay and later become hatefull. 4) tell her how i feel about all this - dont think she would leave but would become hatefull cuz of me not wanting kids.

She wants kids my dude.

Nothing is going to solve this.

BTW Before this GF I had short term ex-gf before ( 3 months lasted , I knew she had to go cuz of her attiduted, so i left her) still even when i knew i would leave her, i still cried like a bitch after leaving her. Not because of her character, but cuz i was used to everyday contact of her and sleeping with her. Because at that time i yearned for physical touch, sex and so on. After leaving her and 3 months later i got myself together back.

Right.

You need to learn to be less needy. Or fuck other women.