24yo, had some bad lows, and good highs, looking for more stability without sacrificing opportunities

I'm looking for personal opinions and life advice, stories would help a lot too :)

  1. Q. Is confidence more hormonal or a mindset? Personal answer: seems like when I'm on top of my sleep, take ashwagandha, make an effort to meditate I don't even have to put up an act to be successful. But then ensuring I upkeep on all of those aforementioned things, I forget to actually live and dgaf too much, which increases focus but sacrifices my social life as I'm "too responsible". I'm really athletic, I've benched 3 plates at 82kg, so my hormones are probably good but my diet is pretty lame and it feels like I'm in constant high/low mood cycles.

  2. Q. Better to move to a big town where you seemingly keep running into major life events or live a boring life in the suburbs? I guess I'm at the age where I'm trying to still let loose but don't want to destabilize future too much. I've done well for myself and my career could take off, but it seems like I'll have to sacrifice a big portion of my personality for it. I miss college where I could just exist, go out the door and literally make friends. In the suburbs it takes a draining level of effort to maintain a diminished semblance of a social life.

Unfortunately getting better in my career seems to involve becoming more antisocial as its a pretty nerdy thing and requires a lot of time spent in that mindset to be good at it