It finally happened, it only took 3 months of me working up the balls to actually pull the plug. I'm 25 and dumped my 31F LTR. The thing that killed it was finding out she had a FWB.

Believe it or not it was one of my kinks to be a much younger guy, hence why I LTR'd the whore in the first place. Except now I'm finding out her FWB from 6 years ago was 18 and she was 25. Basically, she was putting out to an 18y/o that just saw her as a ticket for free sex whenever he texted her. And here I was entertaining the idea of marriage with her.

I feel almost good/empowered because I finally did it. I told her to her face straight up "you let other guys use you for sex. that's what you're good for. I shouldn't have led you on about marriage. Good luck out there, im sure there is some divorced 30 year olds that may want to marry someone used up like you. But i cant lock myself up with a used up leftover woman when I'm hitting my prime. Im sorry."

Now that I'm home, I'm getting hit with the "good times" memories. We had a lot and she is super special because she's my first for many things, basically everything including first LTR, except sex. I'm going to sound like a giant pussy, but this girl was truly as close to a unicorn as I'll get. With that body count of 5, and her FWB being younger than me (I would have been 20 at that time), I just felt like puking. If she hadn't had that nasty ass history, she probably could have been the one. OR maybe it's just emotions making me say that. I told her that anyway, and it totally seemed to break her.

I feel so empty and hollow. I'm laying in my bed and wish I could just sleep until this feeling wears off but it's not. I dont know how to get over this and I feel shitty.