I've posted a couple of times now about hating my LTR's past.

tl;dr LTR is pure green flags, her past turns me off and I'm just not happy. Is it worth it to not be a pussy and get over it?

Context: I'm 25, still live at home trying to get into grad school. I work nights, but get paid decently for a single guy. I lift, keep myself clean, etc. Looks-wise my only downside is my shorter height. I'm often told that I am out of her league, and can do much better. She knows this though. She's 31, she's from Japan, and is currently there for the next 30-days.

Green flags first: She treats me like royalty. She gave me a key to her place, does my laundry, leaves dinner (breakfast?) for me, and lets me crash at her place while she's at work/school as I sleep during the day. She gave me spare car keys, she leaves her phone with me unguarded/unlocked, and while she's at work constantly sends me snaps/videos to watch after I wake up. She went out of her way to please my family and win their approval. Any time I've requested she do something (looks wise, behavior wise, sex wise) she immediately does it. Although she across the ocean, she constantly shares her location and records her daily events with me. I know I can't know for sure, but I have little reason to think she's seeing someone on the side over there.

Her sexual history is wack as fuck. First off, she started by telling me her body count was 3. Then 4, now 5. So who knows to be honest.

She lost her virginity at age 16 to a 22 year old. In japan theres some shit called love hotels - he was from a different city so on the days he needed a fuck, he'd pick up this underage chick, drive to one of those, pump and dump her back at her place. After she turned 18, he dumped her.

When she first came to the states, the first thing she did before even unpacking was open her legs to her housemate/roommate. This is the guy that cheated on her, etc.

After that was another guy who I know nothing about.

After that was a girl.

After that she was raped, but never filed a police report and she pretended to be all traumatized when i asked for details asking why im making her relive those moments.

After that she had a coworker whom she was FWB with. She came to my city, but would fly over there a few times to get dick.

More random details that she has told me (up to us to believe them to be true):

• im apparently the only nonjapanese dick she's had.
• she's never done anything anal. she's only sucked the dicks of the first 2 guys.
• she's always used condoms, let dudes finish inside of her only with condoms on.
• she knows about other positions, but mostly starfishes during sex. apparently in japan, it's customary for women to just lie there and take it while the guy does it all.
• she says im the biggest and best lay shes had. She said I've given her the most intense orgasm she's ever had. RED FLAG: one time she mentioned that i wasnt the best at eating her out.
• she was attached to some of these guys. She kept one in her profile picture on facebook which i made her delete a week after i started vetting. She kept picutres of the guy that cheated on her until i made her delete them. one night we had an argument and while i was ready to walk out the door, she deleted her facebook altogether because she was afraid there were more pictures i would find.
• while she's out of town, i found a mailed letter from her most recent dickgiver FWB coworker asking her to think of him when she is horny and needs to "make love".

-She's older for sure and hitting that wall/past it, and while she's told me she would prefer marriage/kids before she's 34, she has also told me that there's no pressure for me to have to do that. I've told her explicitly that I am nowhere near ready to marry/have kids with her, but am not closed to the idea and will decide if we can make it to a 1 year mark before discussing shit like that. She is on par with that idea, but still fantasizes about marriage/moving in together/ etc.

Fuck. My bad for that long wall of text. Anyway my dilemma - she makes me happy in every other way. I say jump and she asks "how high?". Sure, she's older and there's risks and cons to that but it's something neither of us can change. I just can't get over how she's had 5 dudes inside of her, kissing them while having sex and shit. In other words, while she does everything she can to please me (and does it successfully), i'm just not happy.

One time, I raged out and told her explicitly what i've been told here: I slut-shamed her, called her post-wall, called a cumrag that wanted to settle down after no one else saw anything in her.

She's asked me to "please forgive me for my past", has cried about it, and says she regrets it, has offered to pay for therapy for me (the fuck?), and one time was on her knees begging me to look at her for her present and see what she's done for me and not focus on her past.

Seeing that I obsess over this shit, is it worth it to try and change my mindset and stick around? Or should I just save my time, save her time, and end things?