• I'm 25 and she's 31, we've been together for 6 months. -After 3 months of talking, I made her my LTR. I was serious with her and she seemed to have it all: intelligent (PhD), her own place, a retirement, no kids, no drugs, not a party animal, conservative, and she's Asian. She DID try to tell me about her past on the VERY FIRST DATE, but I stopped her and told her I didn't want to know because no good could come out of it. That was my major fuck up, and this was before I knew the RP existed. Now i know when hoes talk, let them talk.

  • She has told me she is looking for marriage and has already determined that she wants it with me. I wasn't committed to the idea, but didn't exactly reject it. I had oneitis with her big tie.

  • Last week, she left to asia for a business trip for 1 month. On a video call with me, she confessed her past to me. She had 4 sexual partners, 3 LTRs and 1 FWB. Her hoe phase starting when she was 16 with a 22 year old for 3 years. Next guy lasted for 3 years, next guy lasted for 2 years. These were all LTR.
  • Her most recent was a guy in 2016, whom she was fuckbuddies with for a year.

  • She told me she used to frequent hotels, get pounded, and get dropped at the curb. She lived with the third guy and slobbed that knob every morning. With her fuck-buddy, she'd walk to his place after class, get pounded, then leave.

  • After she told me, I broke it off. She convinced me to stay because before I knew all this i was definitely hooked on oneitis with her. She is great, really pampers me and makes me not look at other women. She tried convincing me that this was all in her past and that she's changed AWALT.

  • She said she wouldn't fuck every day with any of these guys. She said the guy she lived with they slept in separate beds. The first guy was statutory rape but she enjoyed it so she kept up with it. She doesn't tell me about the second guy.

  • She kept two on her facebook. I made her delete her facebook when we had the fight, and delete their contact information.

My question is: Where do I go from here? She's made all the changes I have asked for. She tossed all of the belongings from these exes, she's cut off all contact, she's done some drastic shit that's hard to explain here that shows me she's committed to keeping me around with her.

I can't get her nasty past outta my head though. The FWB is a turn off. She told me she won't tell me any more details of any of this past, yet I'm still very curious because I want to know. I told her I cant marry someone that used to sleep around, and cant marry a whore that will let a guy come inside her without committing to a LTR.

Am I acting like a giant pussy? Should I keep her around or just break it off? Not interested in making her a plate, as I am genuinely grossed out by her past at this point in time. It comes/goes, some night i am turned off and actively grossed out by her, others I remember the great times we had and really just want to be with her.