So my story is a common one here I would imagine. I was a 27 year old virgin. Women dominated my thinking and caused me to be depressed. "I'll never have that relationship like everyone else. No one likes me. I'll never get to start a family." Thought all of that.
Found red pill, felt like my eyes were opened. Started putting in the work. Lost a ton of weight, put on some muscle started new hobbies and talking to women. Stumble upon girl and we hit it off and have sex and are now in an exclusive relationship.
For 20 some odd years I had this vision that once I was in a relationship everything was going to be ok. I would have solid proof I am attractive and could attract women. I would have all these great days where we do things together and experience the world together.
The sucky (or good) part is that it is everything I thought it could be. When I am with her I am a completely different person. I feel light. I feel like I can conquer the world. With her by my side I feel like the best fucker in the room.
The very shitty part is that I imagine losing her and in my head it will be another 20 years or possibly never that I find another girl who would be interested in me sexually. I continually tell myself, even though I think that I know its false, its either her or you might never find someone else. This is really fucking with my head.
I am not sure if there is question in there at all. Is this normal feeling? Has any one else experienced this? how did it go? Kind of just wanted to get my thoughts down but if this makes you want to say something I am all ears.
leftajar 8y ago
Hey, brother.
On a basic level, you're enjoying your first dose of feminine energy. To receive the love of a compatible woman, is to be enlivened, inspired, invigorated with positive energy. In short, you just feel "on."
Some of the highest-achieving men were fueled by the love of their women. We've even adopted a word, "muse," to mean one who inspires creativity through sex energy.
Feels good, right? Like, holy shit good?
And therein lies the rub: this feeling seems to be reliant on being with her.
And it is. I've spent a lot of my life single, and it ispossible to feel great by yourself. (Which is aided through lifting, meditation, hobbies, achievement and all the other standard SMV-boosters.)
That being said, only the feminine can provide the sex energy... so your fear is justified. There is a very, very high chance that this relationship will end. It may even end before you're ready, which feels really shitty.
The "solution," if you could call it that, is in two bits.
First, don't get complacent in the relationship. Short list on keeping your GF:
But -- EVEN IF YOU DO THOSE THINGS -- the relationship may end anyway. Shit happens.
Relationship are pain; it's built into the process. Accept that you cannot escape pain. Seriously -- visualize being dumped by your girlfriend. You will go through a detachment process if and when that happens, and it's painful as fuck. You will go from constant sex and bonding chemicals to zero, and it will feel like withdrawal from drugs. Because those feelings are drugs. It's nature's heroin, her way of ensuring that humans persist.
Accept that that will happen, and commit to yourself right now, that it doesn't destroy you. If you stay up on your game and fitness, you can bang a couple randos to ease the transition.
Such is the way of dating. Godspeed.
goddamnnosybastard2 8y ago
Thanks for this man. I visualize being dumped and her cheating and her fucking someone else or wishing she was with someone else all the time. That shit hurts like hell. Even though I am in the best part of a relationship (honeymoon phase), it fucking sucks because I see her in such an untrustworthy light. AWALT, she's no different no matter how much I want her to be or see her as different she can't be. It's not possible.
It feels so bad to me that I imagine it would be a huge weight off of my mind if she did just break up with me. I wouldn't have to constantly worry about losing her or her cheating or her thinking that I am a piece of shit and she wishes I was one of her exes. I entertain all of these thoughts all the time and torture myself. It fucking sucks. I fucking hate that I do this to myself and no matter what logic and reasoning I tell myself, it just fades away back into " you're smv isnt high enough for her", "she doesn't actually like you", "She's going to make you look like a fool".
Kenny_Twenty 8y ago
Wow. Fucking insightful. Thank you.
I love the realism - accepting pain. There's nothing wrong with that and I feel like a lot of the time people here make leaps in logic in order to not accept that fact. When I experience that sentiment on this sub I feel like I'm being lied to and it's discouraging.
BrajScience 8y ago
Fantastic insight braj.
Limekill 8y ago
Great post.
Up-voted.
everythingisthrown 8y ago
TRP is not here to get you laid or to get you a girlfriend. TRP is here to get you to make a fucking man out of yourself.
While, you can stay with her and be happy you need to be talking to other women in a sort of friendly way to keep an abundance mentality.
aboveaveragebabydick 8y ago
That's annoying
Good
Sepean 8y ago
The way to keep her is to stay alpha - she will continue to shit test you and you must not give in to this and try to appease her.
Also, play some light dread game. This will both keep her interested and get your head screwed on right in regards to your alternatives. And women can fucking smell if you know you have options or not.
GregariousWolf 8y ago
Good job losing weight and working on bettering yourself. Stay the course. What you're feeling is totally normal. Keep in mind a few things:
If she doesn't respect you and treat you well, get rid of her and find one who does.
Women are like buses. Wait a little while, and another will come along.
Authority8 8y ago
Here's the thing... 27 is a wonderful age. You are going to be twice the man next year than you are this year. You'll be attracting women who are twice the woman that your current girl is.
So however great you think she is.. Just wait.. It is about to get a whole fucking lot better.
Unless you stop working on yourself, lifting, achieving goals, etc.
Until then enjoy the good fuck and feelings of falling in love. Don't commit, she will impede your progress if you allow her to take priority over becoming a better man.
PS. This is from experience. I'm 28, found TRP a year ago. Totally falling in love with a girl right now. She's so much better than my last girl, who was much better than the one before that. It's wonderful being a man and moving up. That feeling of love and lust and insane happiness is reproducible and gets better every time you move up.
OneRedYear 8y ago
The best relationships end with one party dying. That's the best you can hope for. Think about that. Now think about the dozens of other ways it can end. Now think about how many of those you can actually do something about, I'm sure it will be a small number. Realize that the only thing you can control in a relationship is yourself, being clingy, needy and fearful is umanly. Remember she already has a pussy, she doesn't need two. So man up, accept that either one of those options will come true and it will be over, or one of you will die and it will be over. Enjoy it in the meantime until it's over. Thinking too much and being afraid will only fuck you up.
markyLEpirate 8y ago
Do t develop oneitis. There are plenty of girls out there, don't just settle. Keep bettering yourself and you don't have to worry about losing her because you should look out for you above anyone else
RPmatrix 8y ago
you stumbled upon this one, you'll also stumble across more IF you keep your eyes open
that's why TRP teaches to have an 'abundance mentality' -- to stop guys feeling exactly this way
You now know you can attract women ,, it's just this is the first, and we feel for you bro, but I doubt she'll be the last, so be prepared to see her change (and maybe not for the better) as the relationship continues
anyway, you're still in the 'honeymoon phase' which is great to experience, but likke any drug, it doesn't last
forewarned is forearmed
keep up learning about RP knowledge bro, you're doing good and it's great to hear about your success
take it easy mate
matrix
Pushnikov 8y ago
This has to do with loving yourself first. My best friend? Myself. I can be alone, be happy as a bee. I don't really care if I have someone that much, except when I really want some attention, because that's what I want - then I get it. I have some people that give me this attention and I treat them well and they treat me well.
Now, do you love yourself? And, the answer is you don't. You still feel down on yourself. Learn to love yourself. I have done some embarrassing shit and sometimes it comes back up - and the first thing I say is, "damn, I love you." Because, ya, I did some crazy shit, but you know what? That's me.
Everyone else will come second, for the best. When you care for yourself, you can share that with others, when you don't, you have nothing to share - no matter how much you love someone. You need that foundation first and foremost, or the facade will crack one day and she and everyone will see you for what you WERE - a reformed fat dude. Is that what you want to be? A reformed fat dude? Or a dude who is happy with himself?
goddamnnosybastard2 8y ago
When confronted with this I basically just nod and agree. I fucking hate myself. I still hate my body. I hate my height. I hate my face. I hate my hair. I am trying to change the things I hate but for right now, I hate them and some of them I can't change. I picture myself being someone who is happy no matter what is going on in their life, alone or not and it just seems like that would be amazing. I dunno how to get there.
Pushnikov 8y ago
I found a West Australian Buddhist really helped with just resetting my mindset... I'm not recommending any religious parts of Buddhism. I am just talking about the philosophy of self-awareness that Buddhism promotes. He is quite convincing as a Westerner who became a Buddhist and can share those thoughts in our own words. I watched a lot of these, but I just googled these two because it's been a long time since I've needed them.
These are quite Red Pill neutral, I wouldn't say they land on either pill. And, he is quite limited on too much of the religious aspects.
How to deal with rejection and lack of self-worth | by Ajahn Brahmavamso
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=enFEj7wKrnM
Talk your way to Happiness :
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g7d-KozmokQ
3rt41 8y ago
Live your life like she is not the last pussy you will fuck.
somethingofvalue 8y ago
It's normal and it goes badly. Don't treat her as "the one", although who knows, maybe she's a quality girl. Give it time.
redpillcynic 8y ago
Dude. Sidebar stuff:
Your SMV has only started peaking. You're 27. Men reach peak SMV at 35. If you commit now, you're giving up TONS of potential pussy.
You need to get more partners to get over this. Don't commit now, you've barely tested the waters