So since october or november of last year I have been feeling like shit, I am unmotivated and depressed.

Everyday a feel lost and empty, I usually tend to evocate the past in mu thoughts, the experiences I had this summer while I took action and I compare myself with the past and see that I am not the same, that I am other guy and I have lost all my skills on game.

I have been waking up at 5:30 am, studying to get good grades for the career I want and started to learn german since september, but I feel lost everyday, even if I lift 4 days/week and get good grades, I feel sad and lost.

Sometimes I think that it’s related to my lack of taking action because I live in a 1000 popularion village and I can only approach and do game in summer, that’s why I focused mainly on myself (like a monk mode)

I would appreciate your help and thoughts, because this is shit

TLDR: Even if I have been lifting, getting good grades and started hobbies, although, I feel lost and sad everyday