So my ex girlfriend and i were together 4 yrs ago. And we were super close when we were happy. Never have gotten along that well with a human since her. In terms of sex, humor, having a good time it was great. She did some fucked up shit to where i told her fuck her and left her.

However i look back at it after all this time of growth, and she still did some fucked up shit. But i realized how controlling and beta of a bf i was. I wouldnt let her drink smoke or anything cause i didnt trust her. I realize how pathetic i was, i was only 16 and just didnt know.

I havent spoke to her in years. But i kind of want to send her a letter apologizing for all the pressure and clinginess i put on her. But i also feel this would be beta as fuck.